Hello out there.

I smell fall. ^_______________^ Happy day~

SIRIUS BLACK IS ON MY CHEST AND IN MY PANTS!!!

*ahem* Now on to the story...

Today was full of win~ so much so that I'm actually writing in this journal. :O

First off, I got to talk to a friend on WoW that I haven't seen online for months. I really missed him. :( Hopefully now he will be on more so whee. :D Also, speaking of WoW I managed to farm the mats for a Robe of Power for my mage so she is zomg awesome.

Nagi and I decided to go on an adventure to the mall today - our mission was to buy new work shoes for her but there was oh so much fun on the way~

I found another beanie baby sheep for my collection, got a book thong, Nagi bought me a SIRIUS BLACK SHIRT WHICH I AM NEVER TAKING OFF, we got some orange-y thing at Starbucks, went to Applebees's and had the most awesome food, and rounded off the night by going to see Stardust.

Stardust, by the way, was made of the most win I've seen in FOREVER. If any of you get the chance to see it, do so; you won't be disappointed. :D Here's a spoiler - Robert Dinero dancing around in a dress with a frilly boa. That is reason enough to see it. xDDD It was so sweet too, a fantastic love story/adventure movie. <333

Gah I've gotten out of the habit of writing so this isn't nearly as exciting as my day was but whatever, the point is I HAVE A SIRIUS BLACK SHIRT!!1!

Current Mood: joyful

Well I finally finished Half-Blood Prince again tonight, later than I anticipated since I accidentally fell asleep earlier. However, I moved on to Deathly Hallows and have so far made it to page 10.

( Fuck you JKR! )

Assuming I get over my mind numbing rage I will read more and update with further developments.

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Well after 8 years of reading HP I've finally reached the end... I'm slightly depressed. :(

Current Mood: NO!

SIRIUS!!

( A trip to Largo, fun at Wal-Mart, and Room Rearranged-ness )

Tags: pictures, rearranged room

I refuse to post in this stupid journal again.

I don't know why I suddenly have such anger toward it but every time I think of LiveJournal I want to bash my head against something.

>:(

Friday at last~ and payday too.

My mind finally decided to accept the fact that I have to go to work five days a week as inevitable so I woke up in a better mood -- meaning I did not feel like crashing my car into any trees on the way there. xP

I've met some nice people so I don't feel as lonely sitting by myself in a corner (there were no more cubicles left). We sit at lunch together and talk and meet up in the mornings and on break. :3 I enjoy their company and this one woman, her name is Dianna is helping me write letters and resumes and stuff so I can possibly get another job doing web design stuffs. It's nice to have someone believe in me and tell me I can actually do what I want as opposed to what I usually hear.

There's also this other guy, Jeff who is really awesome. We both have friendly competition to see who can get better PAR scores each day. xD I determined that I make my life so hectic because I am always competing against people whether they know it or not. I realized this when we had some down time to chat about various things. I won't be happy until I'm the best at everything. xD Perhaps now that I realize this I can breathe and try to be somewhat normal... haha, not likely. xP

Yesterday morning was crazy for me. I had to stop to get gas so on my way in to work I went to the BP station next to Publix. A bunch of dumbasses hadn't driven up the second gas pump so all the lanes were blocked so I circled around to use the other side. Well, this guy with and unnecessarily large SUV was backing up and I thought he was leaving, so I drove up to the first pump so someone could go behind me like the nice person I am. But no, apparently this fucking asshole was backing up into the space I was going for and he gets out of his car and starts screaming at me. I just stared at him for a moment in shock before I backed up to the pump behind me. I was already miserable that morning about not wanting to go, would rather tear off my arms and beat myself senseless with them, etc, etc so I started crying like a moron. I couldn't stop until I was in the parking lot of Cingular... how pathetic is that? I wish I could stop being so sensitive about stupid things like that...

Today I went on a useless adventure to Fashion Square. My main purpose was to seek out DBZ DVD's that I don't already own, which ended with no result. FYE had some but they were all full price at about $25 and as much as I would like to own all the DVD's I'm not paying full price. :p I also stopped in Game Stop, EB, and Hot Topic (where I saw Sparky and we talked for a minute or two). I think I also saw Tina but I didn't bother looking twice and went on my way. Afterwards I stopped at SciFi City which was also a bust and finally at Publix where I bought a sandwich for dinner. I suppose it's good I didn't spend any money, I need to start saving if I'm ever going to move out... or maybe get a new laptop. I still haven't decided which is more important yet. xD

I thought I had more to write about... I may be going to my grandma's tomorrow depending on whether or not I want to give up my last two day weekend for possibly the next two years or more of my life. x_x Oh, now I remember what I was going to say. I got my new schedule: 12pm-9pm Monday, Wednesday-Saturday. I get to sleep in I guess, but I liked getting up early... now I won't be up until 11am and the whole day will be gone. Nothing will be open when I get off work so there goes all my fun. xP Also, since the call center closes at 9pm we have to stay until the calls are out of the queue which can take up to an extra hour. Good thing = after 8pm you get a 10% differential in pay (five whole dollars a week! *sarcasm*) plus whatever overtime for clearing out the calls. I'm not sure if getting more money is worth spending all my time there though. I already have nothing to spend all my money on a this point. It all seems rather useless to me... I only have to pay my parents $400 a month and I get about $1600 a month. I suppose when I move out it'll mean more to me.

One more thing about work; I got two QA's done on me the last two days and I got 100% on each one, which is awesome and all. However, my TM made me listen to the calls and go the paper at the same time and in my honest opinion I did horrible on both calls. xD I had to transfer one guy and the other one flipped out at me because I could not set up a payment arrangement for him and he threatened to cancel his service. Afterward I was wondering how horrible I had to be to get a bad score. xD I don't feel as nervous now though 'cause if those sucked then whatever other calls they record can't be any worse.

I don't know why I wrote this. I don't like writing anymore. I find it best to forget everything and move on to the next day... if I wrote about every monotonous day I think I might shoot myself. Ugh. *pokes self* Make the blinding blandness of my life evaporate PLEASE. I need some excitement, something to look forward to. "One of these days I'm going to snap, and it's not going to be pretty." Well, maybe except for the fact that I think I've numbed myself completely to everything in the world. Blaaaaaah. Why are all the good/fun things in my life not real?

Btw, on a very random note: Hawaiian Punch + Orange Juice + Tropicana Fruit Punch = The best drink ever. xD

Current Mood: melancholy

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Current Mood: tired

I have at long last purchased a digital camera... it's the one thing I probably wanted most in the world and yet it's taken me many, many years to buy one. xD But now that I do have one expect many pointless posts consisting of the same few images in different lighting... hahaha. :D And now, for my first batch of irrelevance! Oh, and I will edit later with a video I accidentally took of myself typing. xD

( Pictures~ )

Current Mood: ecstatic

I'm bored out of my mind so I'm just going to type useless crap nobody cares about. ;D

Today I finally got my permanent cap for my tooth! It's been a pain in the ass to have a temporary cap fall off every time I try to eat meat and nothing tasted right when I chewed with the other side of my mouth. xD I celebrated by getting breakfast at Burger King. I also went to Best Buy for a short while to inspect the DBZ DVD's which all suck ass. I remember them having a bunch but when I got there they only had the Broli movies... I think someone bought everything but those. Perhaps they hate Broli. xP

Anyway, I am getting back into DBZ. Or at least I was... I found a website with links to all DB, DBZ, and DBGT so I started watching them. I got to the second season of DBZ and all of them were taken down. >.< I have now accepted the mission to own all of it even if I have to spend fifty billion dollars. xDD I was ever so joyful when I remembered I actually had some episodes with Mirai Trunks on them on DVD. :D DBZZZZZZZ~!!!!! *head bangs* Yeah I'm a freak, what can I say?

Work is utterly boring. I wish the training were at a faster pace though at the same time I do not look forward to taking my first call. I'm certain I will panic and everything will explode. xD We're going to observe someone taking calls tomorrow so hopefully that'll alleviate some of my anxiety. There's really not much else to say about it... I like sitting, though the novelty has worn off already. Oh, I get paid tomorrow~ :D $700 baby! SHOPPING SPREE TIME!

Ummm.... yeah. >.> This is why I don't update, I have absolutely nothing to say. My life just isn't that entertaining.

Oh, I know. ZELDA! My dad beat the game yesterday... I'd have beat it ages ago but I know that once I finish it there won't be another Zelda game in a billion years and that makes me sad. :( I am almost done though, only two temple/dungeons left. And it's so pretty and fun with the Wii controller and yay~!

I started reading the Eragon book Mana got for me and it's nifty so far. :3 I'm still afraid that I will hate the movie once I finish it though. I probably won't finish for a while though at the rate I've been going. I just don't have the time to spend hours reading anymore. :( I miss that a lot, I must say...

Ugh. Four hours of boredom left... then I have to come back tomorrow. T_T But then I get a three day weekend. :D

*mind is blank*

Okay well if anyone else is as bored as I am, feel free to send a text message I will probably be very quick to respond. Ja!

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Falling Again - Lacuna Coil

( I quit Regal almost three weeks ago yet check this crap out. )

Current Mood: annoyed
Current Music: Dexter's Lab

( Because I am just that bored )

Current Mood: okay
Current Music: Friendship - Tenacious D

It's just been one of those days...

As of Thursday morning I got a job at Cingular, I don't start until December 4th, however. I assumed that since many of the people working at Regal only work one or two days a week I would be able to do the same, but I didn't count on the fact that they were only allowed to do so because they had school, whereas I had another job. I told Timm about it, he congratulated me rather half-heartedly and said I wouldn't be able to close up my availability because it was for another job, not school. :/ I told him I didn't know the exact hours yet, and he said to leave it at that and give them more information later. UGH. I need SOME time off for training to see when I will be working and since he didn't give me any ideas as to how to request off for that I'm just going to put "out of town" and if they catch me in the lie, so be it.

Anyway, I spent all of last night and most of today extremely worried about it all even though none of this is taking place for at least another month. Everyone at work today insisted that I looked "sad" which baffled me because I was trying harder than normal to smile and act normal. xD I guess that failed, eh?

After my break today I felt a little better and at the end of the day they closed me out relatively early so I got to help Paul with stock and trash so we had plenty of time to talk. He made me feel better about it all and said I should just quit if they didn't give me what I want (not in so many words, but it was implied) and I agree for the most part. I love working there, I love the people there, and of course I love my free movie tickets but $11.01 an hour is waaaaay better than the measly $6.50 I'm making at the moment. Not only that, but I get to sit all day and I get at least TWO BREAKS. AN HOUR FOR LUNCH!! (I am stupidly super-excited about this) At Regal we stand all day and get one 35 minute break which barely leaves me enough time to find somewhere to eat, get food and then eat it. I'm done with that shite.

Ugh, I thought Timm would be more understanding, which is a big reason why I feel so nervous about it. I don't want to have to choose... I want both jobs. I just don't want to work five days a week in both places because I would be stressed out from lack of sleep. I figured if I worked from like 8-4 at Cingular I could work a couple days at Regal from 6-11 and still have enough time for sleeping and having a life. But if it comes down it, I'm saying syonara to Regal. xP I would like to say "Having me around for two days it better than not having me at all." After all, I'm their star, I make them the most money...

Which leads me into another infuriating thing that happened today. OB got lead. >:/ At this point I don't give a damn about the title, but the money. If I make them so much god damn money then where's my fucking raise? I'm not going to slave away there all fucking day with absolutely no results. Not when I don't get employee of the week, or the month, anything. I get SHIT. The only thing I ever get is from Ryan, when he tells me a did a good job or he allows me a few minutes to sit in the back to rest since I always seem to be busting my ass while everyone else gets the awards for sitting around. I'm absolutely tired of this crap!

There are other things bothering me but it's not worth it to write down since it's the same old crap that's always bothering me. xP

Okay, time for WoW before I have to wake up and bust my ass again tomorrow. What joy.

Current Mood: cynical

( This IS creepy >.> )

Current Mood: rushed

Once Armand had dragged Daniel out of bed in New Orleans and shouted at him: "That telephone, I want you to dial Paris, I want to see if it can really talk to Paris."

"Goddamn it, do it yourself," Daniel had roared, "You're five hundred years old and you can't use a telephone? Read the directions. What are you, an immortal idiot? I will do no such thing!"

How surprised Armand had looked.

"All right, I'll call Paris for you. But you pay the bill."

"But of course," Armand had said innocently. He had drawn dozens of hundred-dollar bills out of his coat, sprinkling them on Daniel's bed.

I love Armand so much. xD

In other news, I didn't get Saturday off or Halloween for that matter. ):< *le sigh* I put in for the request! The stupid thing though is that they only gave me four days to work this week but the three I have off aren't the ones I wanted. I know nobody will want to switch either. u.u A lot of people were asking me to take their shifts for Saturday night but since I'll already be there slaving away it didn't help them much. Damn the world! Also, corporate is coming tomorrow so we had to scrub down every visible part of concession today and since most of the people working tonight were minors they had to leave by 11pm which left only me and Mary to do everything else. It sucked even harder because there was this mad rush of random people so we didn't have enough registers open which meant a lot of people had to side-sell and that took a god damn eternity and then the popper, hot dog machine, nachos, and butter machine didn't get clean until waaaay after it should've been. Ugh, it was absolute agony today. I was supposed to work the same shift tomorrow but as a favor to Ryan I'm going in three hours early but I get off at 11pm so I won't have to deal with that madness again.

So, enough bitching. The only other thing I have to mention is that me and Nagi went to the Magic Kingdom on Monday and we took a lot of awesome pictures but when I transferred them from the camera to my dad's computer they were sucked into oblivion. :( I also found a bunch of pictures I'd taken at Lake Eola around May but they vanished soon after they appeared so it looks like I lost them all. >.< There was this really wicked awesome picture of a statue/fountain of Cinderella and I want it SO BAD. Omg, I can't describe to you the awesomeness of the lighting. xD Hopefully someday the camera will stop being a bitch.

Ummmm... I've been spending a lot of money recently. I finally bought the Evangelion boxset which I have still not had time to go through yet. I got the Escaflowne boxset which I am almost done with and it's ten million times more awesome than I remember so I demand that everyone watch it! Bought Sims 2 Pets, bought Okami, Tokyo Drift, and The Little Mermaid on DVD. I think that's about it. xD Whee~ I need to start saving... it shouldn't be too hard now I've bought everything I could ever possibly want (excluding of course, Twilight Princess which doesn't come out until DECEMBER FUCKING 12TH!!!!! >:( and the Gundam Wing boxset which I'll hopefully get sometime in November after I pay for my car and insurance and all that crap).

I still want a better paying job. I applied for a bunch of receptionist positions on Monster.com and one of the companies called me back and left a voice message cause I was at work at the time so I called them back and left them a message and they haven't called me back again... this was almost a week ago too. :( I wish I had been able to pick up the phone! $10 is hell of a lot better than $6.50. I WANT TO MOVE OUT DAMN IT! I WILL DO IT! NOBODY CAN STOP ME!

Now my arm really, really hurts so I'm going to go to bed and try not to freeze to death.

Speaking of which, YAY COLD! :D:D:D:D

Current Mood: sore

I have survived. w00t. :3 It annoys me that I have to go back though. I wish I could just go when I feel like it but I never know what I'm going to feel like so that's not happening. xD

Margaret and Kheyra both got promoted to lead. :( So much for hoping I'd be next in line... I don't see anyone else quitting as lead for a while. >.< I guess I'd better dredge up some motivation to go on another job hunt. Ugh. I'd rather just saw off my legs.

I wish saving money didn't take so long. I could work a 40 hour week and still only end up with $260. I'm never going to move out of this damn place. NEVER. I AM TRAPPED. D: It's not even that everyone is aggravating me here, it's just that I so badly want to be on my own. I want to have to go grocery shopping and feed my cat and do my laundry, make my own food, and be able to be up at whatever hour I feel like being up and not have to be quiet about it. I want independence so badly. :(

These next two days are going to suck. I'm going to be bored but not want to go anywhere/see anyone. >.< Maybe I'll just go use all my movie passes tomorrow... I've been meaning to see a lot of things but too lazy to drive there. xD

Someone give me a million dollars. Please? ;-;

Current Mood: bored

In current news: Owwwwwwwww. T_T

I have almost survived an entire seven days of working! :D Tomorrow may be my breaking point however since I work 3-11 but it's also the last day before I get a couple days off. Hurray! I want to play DDR badly but even thinking about standing right now pains me.

Oh, I suppose I forgot to mention that I finally bought a PS2. I really should update more often. @_@ Too bad I'm busy/lazy to deal with that most of the time. I saw Emi and Andrew on Friday while I was on break so that was fun. :3 I also saw Miyu but I don't think she noticed me. And yesterday I saw Quinn but he didn't even say hi though I waved to him a couple times. :( Teh sadness. Tornado also called me to get in touch with Nagi. I feel the love, really. xP

Jeez my life is boring. I'm trying desperately to think of stuff to write and I'm coming up blank. The only thing that really comes to mind is more bitching about useless crap I can't change about my life and me liking a certain someone who has been going out with his current girlfriend for three years so there's no way in hell I have a chance. xD But he's so sweet and kind, and he meows and likes Pokemon cards. rofl

I also had a fantastic revelation last night. There is no way I'm ever going to kill myself. :O I mean, shit, I've wanted to do it for so long I don't even want to count the years but after the whole Tylenol thing I know I won't try something of that sort ever again. The thought of slitting my wrists makes me want to vomit and I know even if I had access to a functional gun I'd probably chicken out anyway. :/ The thought only upset me more, knowing I actually have do to something with myself now and I don't know what, but it has to be something. I can't work at the movie theater forever. Hell, I don't even really want to be there past October.

I've tried a billion times to figure out what I want to do and how to go about doing it but all I ever come up with is "I can't, I'm too afraid, too stupid, too untalented". If I could just break out of this mindset I'd be okay but I can't I can barely force myself awake on days when I don't have work. If I can't even stay conscious for a couple hours of my own free will what makes anyone think I can fix all the crap I've screwed up in my life?

Damn it I just wish there were some answers. I'm tired of being stuck in this never ending nothingness that my life has become. Fuck, I sound like Evanescence, this is lovely. :/

Well so much for preventing myself from writing all this down. xD I know I'll regret posting this crap in the next half hour so just ignore the latter half and pretend you didn't read it.

Current Mood: blah

Today didn't suck. :O *is amazed*

I managed to have decent conversations with people without feeling like a complete nerd/freak. It was awesome. xD Also, Laura made me a list of things I need to do to open tomorrow which I am insanely grateful for. And I found out how the water gets into the pretzel holder. ;D I am freakishly happy about being alone for most of tomorrow~ Nobody to tell me how to do things, nobody to mess up the floor, nobody I have to pretend to like. >:D WHEE! And I get to do it next Thursday too~ Wahoo!

You know what really sucks though? My mom and brother are going to my grandma's this weekend because it's her birthday but my mom didn't tell me until yesterday so I didn't get the weekend off. :/ Of course, this might be for the best because I usually end up getting pissed off and annoyed when I'm there since everything I do is such a failure in their eyes. xP Now they can talk about me as much as they want and I won't have to let it affect me.

I was going to buy Okami yesterday but NOBODY had it despite the fact that it was indeed September 19th. >:( Why give a release date if it's not going to be in stores until the next day? Now I'm not sure I want to spend my money on that and a PS2 since I've had time to think about it now. *le sigh* Not that it would matter since I don't have a day off until next Tuesday. >.< I have a feeling I might go insane with annoyance at people so I may kill them/myself by then. xD I just hope I'm not stuck on register the entire damn time which I know is futile to wish for because that never happens. :/ Damn them.

Um... yeah, I guess that's it. Ja!

Current Mood: okay

I enjoyed my five day "vacation" far too much. T_T I don't want to go to work today~ I know it's not going to be that bad once I get there but I'd much rather go back to bed or play a video game or something.

I'm tired of people complaining about stale nachos. ;_; I don't want to deal with it anymore. Why can't nachos be eternally fresh? Or why can't they just like stale nachos? I do. xP

Whiiiinnnneeeeee.

*pout*

*sigh*

At least I'll be there at opening and I get off at 6pm. Hopefully it won't be non-stop people. I would prefer a small break to breathe, ya know?

Current Mood: sleepy